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Winter: Oh boy.

This is...bad.

Shit.. no seriously, woke up this morning coz I caught a cold. Damn those wind. Gawd. Had to put tiger balm all over my back and stomach. The real question: How the hell Imma survive WINTER!? Oh boy. Oh....boy. Wrapped heater, microwaveable sweaters/blankets?

OH BOY. Today, at about 6 AM, I woke up (out of my sister's alarm that sounded every 5 minutes) and this is a thing about my sister's room. It's always set to maximum coldness, and of course, I set them to about 25 C and low fan later on. I did. But heck, there's something in her room that always got me.

So this morning, as I type, I have been eating noodle soup, .. and going back an forth to the toilet. :\ Gawd. Is this how it's gonna be when I get there? Gawd.

A Little Update from Me: 15 Days to Go! (it's midnight now)

It's midnight, and it's 15 days to go, now. :,( I'm starting to feel the rush now.

I've got a story to tell today.

So I watched Harry Potter today. I was in a bad luck, because a couple sitting next to me was annoying. Not the girl, the guy. The guy is a cheap-skate looking guy who apparently watched Harry Potter already, so he said stuff that's gonna happen one second before. He also mimics the actors and how they say it. It was completely annoying, and I kinda just tolerated him until half of the movie. I asked the girl to keep her guy shut, and the second time, (I wished I had a shotgun) I just said, SHH! and the third time, I do a "tch" and when it was over, the girl was like, 

"Hey you were really noisy the whole time.." to the guy

Me, having a period and some veins popping out, I said, "YEAH you were SO noisy."

So we quickly left the theater and because he was sitting on the isle, I purposely bump onto him, and of course, he pushed me back. I was that close to punching him, but considering he is one of the cheap-skate Javanese that could call their companies and shoot me when I get out of the mall, I decided not to. I should've. But, this is kind of the time where I'm already going to be out of Indonesia in no time, and I want to be able to go to college in one full, healthy, piece...alive. 

Just when I thought the day couldn't get any worse, I went to Sox Gallery because I knew I needed socks. So I went there, bought some things, went home, and then after I ripped off the labels, I suddenly realized: They didn't put in that checkered headbands. The receipt said I got 12 items, but I've only got 11 items. That fucking bitch even wrote down the wrong numbers, over-pricing for some stuff that I've got. I matched all the items again, and knew that one of them is over-priced. So I decided, tomorrow (today afternoon..coz it's midnight now) I'll be going there and I can't exactly sue them, so I'll just take what I can get. My mom will be coming with me to teach me how to complain at the right manners. I hope it works. I hope I get my effing cute checkered headband, because I PAID for it, and it's not about worth it or not. It's about JUSTICE. I want to get my headband and I WANT THAT PIECE OF RECEIPT to be corrected, because apparently, they tricked me. FUCKING BITCHES.

Yes, I'm complaining. No, I'm not suggesting not to buy from Sox Gallery, in fact, go ahead. their socks are nice to use, but it's the bitch that worked there that I want to punch so badly. It's going to be something like, if the complain doesn't work and the fat bitch's shift is tomorrow, 

"HEY you fat bitch. I'm on my period now. You want a piece of me? Here, eat this. *punches and scratches* Oh that's not enough? How about I cut your finger so you can't commit crime ANYMORE YOU FAT BITCH!"

About living there, I'm just... a bit... bothered on something. It's just that... I can't live without that Jet water shower thing. I clean my ass with that. At least, that's the culture that I live on and it's the cleanest, and it's one of the things I can't live without. It's like, I don't notice them, but when it's missing, it's a huge thing to miss. I can't exactly install a shower on the apartment, so do I have to suck it up and use wet tissues instead? Oh, really, that's gonna clean butt?? REALLY? EW.

EW EW EW EW. I can't stand it. I went to Singapore for a week and I am complaining and whining every single day. Why, why is it that showers aren't installed on bathrooms? I mean, it's for the sake of cleaning asses! :\ Gawd. 


so there you go.

17 Days to Go: Taking Chances

WHAT THE F? 17 DAYS??? OHGGEEEOHHGGEEEEOHGGEEEEOHEMGEEEGAWDGAWDGAWD.

Yes, that's the sound (words) of panic!

I'm really... really.. SAD!

I just felt it yesterday. You know, I've realized, that things are going to be just fine and lives will continue to have fun with or without me. In this case, without me. Things will just go on. Everyone will continue with their lives and people will be okay and be just fine without me, and there's always "It's still the same without her" because yes, sometimes I just have to suck it up because It's gonna be the same without me. World will still spin and Clouds will still float.

The world will go on without me. That's selfish. I know. I don't want to stop anyone because I'm gone. Oh I don't. How do I still live knowing that maybe one day, people will stop missing me? People will stop saying hi to me, saying "Haven't heard of you, busy?" and things will develop in two years. Two, effing, YEARS.

WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN IN MY BACK IN TWO EFFING YEARS?

That's right. Maybe I'm one control freak, or maybe I'm one crazy girl who can't let go, who can't accept that things are going on, with or without me. That things are bound to change, every second, let alone two years. Maybe I'm the kind of girl who wants to know what's going on in everyone's life. Why? Why do I suddenly feel this way? Maybe, again, maybe, because it's in me. Also maybe this parting and goodbye is not for me. Maybe because I'm scared. Maybe because... I don't want things to change, not where I can't see them. Maybe one day when I come back I'll freak out that some people could already forget about me, or a few people could hate me, or that a few acquaintances are dead without me notified.

How am I going to watch that, sitting there alone, let it just flash through my eyes like the movies in fast forward, by the pictures on facebook? There also could be time where I'm locked out of the pictures. I wouldn't be able to see what's happening in everyone's lives anymore..

Yes, I'm afraid of change. So is a whole lot of people out there. I see those people in the movies that's afraid of change. They don't know what's coming to them or if their decision for this change is right. The major change. The turns of their lives. The parting roads of their journey. It's happening to me. It's going to be my turn now. All those time I thought, why is a change so bad? What is it about change that made people freak? Because all this time, almost all of the changes I've had are good changes, the changes that are clear, the bright vision of what it leads me or offer me to. This time, it's almost as if I'm stepping into the end of a giant cliff. It's either stay safe, or jump to the other side of the cliff and see what's behind that thick fog. There wasn't a thick fog in front of me almost every other times. Even if there is a fog, it's not as thick. I don't even know if I'll make it alive if I jump into the fog. Even if I do make it, I don't know what's waiting for me. Is it a slow flowing river with flowerbeds and honey on trees, with bunnies hopping and Birds chirping, or is it a rapid Lava mountain with evil witch with pet Leopards crossbreeding with Crocodiles, sharp fangs and poisonous claws?

This is genuine risk taking. Of course, as everyone would say, I have a bunch of options and choices. How do I take the right one is up to me. How do I visualize what's behind that thick fog is in my mind. How I take on whatever is waiting for me is also, up to me. Maybe I don't have to take that chance. Notice the song, "Taking Chances" It is a perfectly fitted song for a whole lot of conditions, and one of them is this.

"What do you say, to taking chances?

What do you say, to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below..

or hand to hold...

or hell to pay?"

In this case, tickets have been issued. Clothes are starting to be packed in the huge suitcase. Preparations are being bought and planned. Midnight sales have been utilized (WTH?) So this is it. There are a whole lots of choices and options that I can choose for myself, but I'll take the chances. I'll take the risk. I don't know if it's for the best, but it's what I want. I want this more, more than staying here and just being in the 'comfort zone' where no other things can hurt me, but I may never get the same chance or experience and a taste of what's outside the comfort zone, or like in Madagascar 2, outside the Reserve. outside the fence that keep us all save.

and as Alex from Madagascar said, "I've been off reserve. and I survived!" or something similar than that. So there is, of course, a chance that I am going to a place where I'll never expect. Where maybe, in a lot of cases, BEYOND expectations. or...WORSE. or WORST. Lots of things can happen in two years when I finally jump off that cliff. Lots of things, too, will happen to ME when I jump off that cliff. Almost everyone will ask the same question (or similar):

"What if...?"

"What if I don't make it?" "What if I made the wrong decision?" "What if there are leopard crossbreed with crocodile ready to eat me alive when I jump?"

but I'll take the chances, and I'll start changing those negative 'What if's' to:

"What if there are flowers and blue sky there?" "What if this is a once in a lifetime, never again, beautiful opportunity?" "What if there are multiple shimmering experiences and gold waiting on the other side to be claimed?"

So there you go.

Friends, last or not?

Friends.

We all have heard that word, and almost all of us have at least one. Either that's your dog, your human friend or your... imaginary friend. :\

Do they last? Is "Friendship lasts forever" too much? Who made that stupid phrase up? Okay, it's not stupid, it just lacked a few...spices. Or maybe it is stupid.

A while ago, someone told me this,

"You know, your so-called friends that you have, Maybe, just maybe a few of them will last. You know, until the end of the world. Most of them, will be just strangers that you say hello and goodbye in 5 minutes time when you pass them at the mall or on facebook. You say happy birthday to each other, yes, I know. You think it's going to last, you think you know how to keep them your friends till the end of the world, but you don't. I'm saying this because I know so. You go and believe anything you want, but just, give it a while. You'll see what I'm talking about."

I know she might be right, but I hope she's not.

...the bad news is, she is right. No good news.

Is it always like this? People you know in High School for a year or two wouldn't last? Maybe if you know them more and you sit with them and you talk to them everyday, they will last..but for how long? You have the BFF that you talk about your crush with. You have that other so-called BFF that you don't tell about who you have a crush with, but ask if there's any homework today in science class. That's the differences. I mean, you can have a thousand friends that will go (accompany) you to the movies and/or grab a bite, tell each other what's going on, but you can only have that few, a few from all those friends, maybe just one of them, that you can rely on, trust on, and know that they are the ones that last, maybe forever. You don't know for sure, but you believe it. Soon enough, we will move on. Soon enough though, there's always a turn, a parting streets like on the fairytales where Mr. A has to travel west and Mr. B has to travel East.

All right. Maybe you hang out a lot, have a few vacations and laugh and cried...with let's say, ten people. Those ten people, there's always who are closer to who and who aren't so close to who. Say, A is closer to C and B is closer to D. A is friends with B and D, but C knows every little bit of secrets that A has. So maybe they talked and laugh with the rest of their friends. Then, the parting started. Maybe C moved to another country. So A is left with B and D. Will A still be in contact with B and D? Maybe, in some cases, they do. But, in some other cases, they don't, and A moved on.

That's what happen. Friends, do they last? Do we have to be best friends with every group we have in high school or college, or do we just let go a whole bunch of them, keep a few of them as Best Friends Forever, and then make new BFF's or friends? Are those people who you call once in a while to grab something to eat at the new cafe and accompany you to see the movies you both haven't seen worth/ can be called the friends forever?

In a group of then, will everyone of them contact each other when the 'connector' parts? The 'Connector' the person who introduces everyone to everyone else. If the connector is there, everyone will be there. Because he/she is the center. He/she is the one who connects everyone, who introduces A to J. Or D to F. What if... the connector is gone? What if they're not there anymore? Will maybe, E be left alone because he/she is not invited to any other events anymore? Will E be just another stranger that past through them?

How sad. When E already thinks that E is friends with those people, and then two weeks later, the pictures are posted in Facebook, saying, "Yesterday and the week before, at the Coffee shop." and E isn't there, even when E has the time of the world. Just because the connector isn't there. Just because E is not a best friend.

Wouldn't that break her/his heart? Then what's left for E?

A Little Update from Me: 21 days to go!

Oh shit, 21 days to go. that means 3 weeks, LESS THAN A MONTH.


Hahahha.........SO LITTLE TIME.

Just so you know, I posted a little time generator... :,( so to remind myself how much time I have left.

I want to do a few things before I leave, like I want to be able to go on a date with someone I like, I want to watch RAPUNZEL and HARRY POTTER! and I want to prepare well for my art stuff. I also want to make a sister booklet, I also would like to hang out with friends :) I'm gonna miss them all so much!

3 weeks. boohoo!

I wonder how Imma survive without maid there..

The Sims 3 Election Coverage The Last Great Debate

The Sims 3 Election Coverage Rallying the Voters

Quote from Ninjadanerz:

If I saw McCain shaking his ass on TV, I'd fall off a treadmill too. >.>

Love triangle under the Sims moon A The Sims 3 Parody

Morning :) 28th, the singing performance~

Surprised that I woke up early today?

Meh, me too.
Eh, but this time, it's not because I haven't slept since the night before! (hm I just blew my cover!)
It's because...
I AM AWAKE.

Okay, it's because I slept at 7PM (Gawd) yesterday coz I just felt like so and I can't open my eyes anymore.. and I woke up at 1.11 AM, actually. Well, the next hours are me trying to get back to sleep. Well. The point is, I am now awake! I need some coffee.

No, I didn't get a coffee. Why? Because I come from a tea family and we rarely (not that rare, I go to starbucks) drink coffee. On a daily basis, I am a tea person, but I enjoy coffee at most times, too. I like that heavy smell of coffee when I walk into a room. It's super fresh and it smells better than guy's perfume. Ha ha ha. Talking about guys perfume, I hated almost everyone of them.

Back to morning discussion. Because I woke up early, I.... read the newspaper. OKAY! I admit it! I read it backwards! Well, in my defense, I like to see the movie schedules and psshh, I spotted Ryan Reynolds... (wink wink). He has just been nominated for the hottest guy alive .. <3 Oh yeah. He is undeniably cute <3 (wink again) Other than that, I just needed to see what's playing on Blitz Megaplex, the cinema, in Grand Indonesia. Planning to watch Harry Potter, and I need to know the time.

For today, this is it! The day where I'll sing in front of a LOT of people ... singing performance in Grand Indonesia, one of the high class malls in Jakarta. It's a huge, huge, huge mall. I mean, I could get lost. One minute I am in this basic mall and the next thing I know, I'm on this themed mall. Luckily, I have been there ...well let's say more than 5 times,.. ... maybe 10 times? So I kinda know a few places around. Like, where Mr. Curry is :D and where my stage is >_>

I'll be singing True Colors by Cyndi Lauper. I knew that song first from GLEE :) and then 2 weeks before singing this and changing my previous song 'Hurt' by Christina Aguilera, I decided that this is the best I could come up with, without feeling anxious and nervous about how people are going to judge me. It's .. I think that's what you call nervous ... but I'll usually be more nervous when I see the stage. This time, it's not competition, so I hope nervous won't show up!

You know, I invited friends, family and basically.. okay not basically. Some other people I know. Well, teachers from Global Jaya, my former high school. I invited a few teachers and I wonder if any of them, if they met (if they didn't click 'attending' on the facebook event but show up anyway) are gonna feel awkward? Like,
A: Hey,... how come you are here?
B: Ermmm I come to see S singing...Yourself???
A: Hmm I came to see her sing, too...did S invite you?
B: ...yes... she invited you?
A: erm.. yes..
B: Oh..............

Awkward!
I hope that wouldn't happen.

Plus, my other big worry is my dad. You know that general scenario. Basic dad, first kid is a daughter, and the daughter is 17. Classic. I mean, after or before I got in the stage, I have to talk to my friends or teacher or family, .... or all three of them. So I'm really hoping that my dad wouldn't question me, like, I just told you, basic scenario.

Dad: Hey... who are those people, did you invite them?
Me: emmm friends and teachers?
Dad: Why'd you invite them? (making that annoyed-I-don't-like-that-and-I'm-suspicious face)
Me: Ermm.. just because?
Dad: (probably nag) just because?

And he'll start to think of all the possibilities why I invited my teachers, my former teachers, ETC. Just for my worries on that, everytime the clock strikes on same number in a row (e.g. 4.44 or 1.11) I pray deep and wish deep...so that nothing would ruin this, blah blah, you know the rest. What's wrong with that? Nothing wrong, right? I mean, now that I've graduated high school, they are still teachers, my former teachers alright, but their statuses have moved from 'teachers' to 'former teacher/possibly friend' So there's absolutely nothing wrong with that, right? So, how Imma tell him that it's nothing, it's just inviting people!... Marketing myself. Eh. Maybe that works. (sigh)

So... what do I do? Like, when I get off stage, the first thing I do is talk to my parents or friends, but what about them, am I going to just ignore them or text them secretly (wtf?) I mean, they ARE guests, informally. This is an open event that anyone can watch. I'm just inviting them because I sing. So it's not really private or like invitation to watch my performance because I like you kind of thing. It's just, why don't you come to my performance, I want you to hear me sing kind of thing.

See how when we get older, our anxiety just grew more and more, according to what we know?

Wish me luck! (on singing and the reasons/excuse)

MISTAKE. VARIOUS!

What they actually means  
     

 If a barber makes a mistake,


 It's a
   
   

 
 If a driver makes a mistake,  


 It is a
  New path
 

 
 


 If a engineer makes a mistake,


 It is a
 
 

 
 


 If parents makes a mistake,


 It is a
 
 



 If a politician makes a mistake,


 It is a
 
 



 If a scientist makes a mistake,


 It is a
 
 



 If a tailor makes a mistake,


 It is a
 
 

 
 


 If a teacher makes a mistake ,


 It is a
 
 

 
 


 If our boss makes a mistake,


 It is a
New idea
   
 

 


 If an employee makes a mistake,


 It is a  
'Mistake'      

 

   
 

 

windows magic hahaa

windows magic
Sebuah pepatah "Tiada Gading yang Tak Retak" memang sangat cocok untuk
diterapkan ke dalam segala hal di dunia ini. Dunia IT pun tak terlepas
dari pepatah tersebut dan salah satunya adalah sistem operasi paling
terkenal di dunia saat ini, yaitu: "Windows" milik Microsoft. Di bawah
ini, terdapat beberapa keanehan pada sistem operasi fenomenal tersebut.
Mungkin beberapa di antara anda sudah mengetahuinya, tapi tak ada
salahnya untuk mencoba bukan?


MAGIC#1
Orang India menemukan bahwa tidak ada seorang pun yang dapat membuat
FOLDER di komputer dengan program Microsoft manapun dengan judul folder
"CON". Ini merupakan hal nyata dan seluruh kru Microsoft sendiri tidak
dapat menjawabnya kenapa hal ini bisa terjadi. Cobalah dengan membuat
sebuah folder dengan nama CON atau con.

Bukalah My Document -> File -> New -> Folder -> ketik CON atau Con atau
con
Apa yang terjadi?

MAGIC #2
1) Buka sebuah notepad file kosong
2) Ketiklah "Bush hid the facts" (tanpa tanda kutip)
3) Save di mana pun anda suka
4) Tutuplah dan bukalah kembali file tersebut.
Aneh bukan?

MAGIC #3:
Microsoft Crazy Facts

Cobalah hal yang menarik ini, sungguh aneh! Bahkan Bill Gates sendiri
tidak menemukan jawabannya kenapa ini bisa terjadi! Hal ini ditemukan
oleh orang Brazil. Cobalah!
1)Buka program Microsoft Word dan ketik: =rand (200, 99)
2) kemudian anda ENTER
Apa yang anda temukan? Menarik bukan?

Are You Busy Enough?

ARE U BUSY ENOUGH???
>
> You know you are living in 2010 when...
>
> 1. You accidentally enter your password on the
> microwave.
>
> 2. You have not played solitaire with real cards in
> years.
>
> 3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your
> family of three.
>
> 4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next
> to you.
>
> 5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends
> and family is that
> they do not have e-mail addresses.
>
> 6. You go home after a long day at work or campus
> and still answering
> the phone in a business manner.
>
> 7. You make phone calls from home; you accidentally
> dial "9" to get an
> outside line.
>
> 8. You have sat at the same desk for four years and
> worked for three
> different companies.
>
> 9. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which
> you did not have the
> first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a
> cause for panic and
> you turn around to go and get it.
>
> 10. You learn about your redundancy or your
> 'drop-out' on the 12 o'clock
> (liputan siang) news while having lunch!
>
> 11. Your boss does not have the ability to do your
> job.
>
> 12. You escape from doing your dissertation just
> because too busy with
> your job.
>
> 14. You pull up in your own driveway and use your
> cell phone to see if
> anyone is home.
>
> 15. Every commercial on television has a website at
> the bottom of the
> screen.
>
> 16. You get up in the morning and go on-line before
> getting your coffee.
>
> 17. You start tilting your head sideways to smile.
>
> 18. You are reading this and nodding and laughing.
>
> 19. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are
> going to forward this
> message.
>
> 20. You are too busy to notice there was no #13 on
> this list.
>
> 21. You just actually scrolled back up to check
> whether there is #13 on
> this list or not!
>
> 
>
> AND NOW YOU ARE LAUGHING at yourself. Go on, forward
> this to your
> friends ... you know you want to!

True zodiacs :O mine is!

VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.


SCORPIO - The Intense One[/b][/color]
Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.



LIBRA - The Harmonizer[/b][/color]
Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.


ARIES - TheDaredevil[/b][/color]
Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.


AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart [/b][/color]
Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.


GEMINI - The Chatterbox[/b][/color]
Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Likes change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent, But is only changeable. Beautiful physically and mentally.


LEO - The Boss [/b][/color]
Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. D oing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.


CANCER - The Protector[/b][/color]
Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.


PISCES - The Dreamer[/b][/color]
Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.


CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter [/b][/color]
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendl y at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.

TAURUS - The Enduring One[/b][/color]
Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings who are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.


SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One[/b][/color]
Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

One week before Exam!

Thinking about exam makes me wanna puke.
and writing about it in my blog here? Almost killed me!

Despite all that and the fact that no one actually reads the blog anyway, I'll post anyway while choking to death.

EXAM starts on May 4th, and starts with one of my weaknesses. F U C K!.
Really. IB had killed me long ago when they mentioned the word both HIGHER LEVEL and EXTENDED ESSAY.
Since I've done my Extended Essay, that means what's left is the other subjects.
It had also grabbed my soul and trapped it when I heard the word MATH and BUSINESS. It just keep going and going. Now I'm in jail of IB, I can't escape nor bribe the officer to get out.
Next week is the silent week. Yes, in jail, it is called You-are-not-tortured break. Just a week, to prepare myself, steady and healthy (?) for the court :| Yes, the courtroom.

I am so stressed out of the exams and the universities stuff.
Mostly because I grew up and became senior and being 17. I grew up too fast :| I'm not feeling ready, not even close, at all!

EXAMS:
IB: I'm doing 3 HLs and 3 SLs. Higher Level and Standard Level.
HL: Music, English B, Business Management
SL: Chemistry, Math, Indonesian A1

I am really stupid and probably drunk when I decided that Business Management is going to be new anyway and HL or SL doesnt matter, well, it DOES. Found that out after.... let's see, one term.
YES, one term. Wanted to drop to SL or NOT TAKE humanities AT ALL. But option not-take-humanites aren't available. and I can't level-up my Chemistry (imposssible) nor Math (out of the question). Indonesian? No. Seen the HL. Heard it. scared of it.

Yes, I grew weaker in Business Management.

And now, the weakest is Business and Math. How great is THAT? My Chemistry is even better than business. Wow. Lucky I didn't take HL in Chemistry.

So, Making Business Management the FIRST thing I have to learn is super no no. Guess what's next. Business Management (BM) paper 2 and then on the afternoon... MATH. Yes, math. YES.

After that, the next week I have English (nice) and then another doom: Chemistry. I think I need to raise an event of sleeping over in my chemistry teacher's house, the night before, with the whole class. That'll be super useful.

After Chemistry, drawing so much electrons and isomers with lots of Carbons etc. we have to be ready for our Indonesia test. Dreadful. and that means LOTS of 4 pages and more essay writing.

And all that ends at 14th of May. Wait. not the end of the exam, though... there's music left!! and guess what! I have to wait till 21st of May. that means, ONE WEEK. to just finish the exam.

What am I gonna do in one week? come to school everyday and listen to Andy-sensei's music collection???

My Birthday!

Let's see!!

Happy birthday to me!!

Went to the temple because I needed to do something...

then my dad said yesterday, lemme take you to anywhere you want to eat tomorrow!

:D smiles! Went to sushi tei and ate 7 blue plates, one golden plate, one miso soup and a few beans!

New record. trying more, but oh well!

Made my ID card on thursday, receiving on wednesday, then will go and make license!! the one thing that I'm so really excited about is my license now!

It's like, the blink of eye.
Really.

Bought David Archuletta and Miley's cds. listening to it now. Wanted to buy Gaga but sold out. bought miiko fan book comic.

I guess some things never change.Eating sushi, buying new CDs, looked at boys' coll jacket. I don't really know why  male's jackets are so more attractive to me than girls'. BOught comics.

I'm seventeen. Can't believe it.

What's happening so far?

Alright, I've got due dates and Mock exams.

I did mock exam and not surprisingly my math is still damn low.

Yes, I got 36% on math. That's 3 out of 7 in IB grades. There are 2 papers, and in paper one, there are 2 sections, A and B. B's answer was supposed to be on separate paper, so I did it on the separate paper, and I attached them already, but today when the test was given back, I got ZERO on section B because my answer sheet wasn't attached. That was ridiculous and I could've got extra marks and I could have, possibly, get a 4. At least got a chance.

That is so Sh*t!!

My Chemistry has 3 papers: Paper 1: I got 4/7, Paper 2: 3/7, Paper 3: 6/7
Actually, paper 2 was my mistake. I didn't really looked at the instructions carefully and that made me do 3 CHOOSABLE questions in section B. My bad.

Waiting for other scores. I would be devastated if I did bad on music and english, because those are my strong points. I would'nt be surprised about my math and chemistry. I expect a 5 or 6 in my Indonesian Language. I didn't really do great. I will be lucky if I get 3 or 4 in Business management, because I knew that that's my even-weaker-point than chemistry.

About due dates, I don't know about my CAS anymore. That's really bugging me and I was too concentrating on my mock exam I forgot about it totally.

I am working on my musical investigation which I think is gonna be a problem since I don't write good essays, especially when it includes ANALYZING, whatever subject that is.

I am also not doing really good on my compositions, but I think I did enough though. Now it's the statement of intent that I really need to work on and that is really pushing my stress out again, because I didn't really remember about my song named 'Lost' and I really doubt I can go over 100 words with that.

Recordings are over! :) Now it's just time to submit.

And my birthday's coming up, WOOHOO! Gonna be 17 in 5 days! So excited about my ID card and Driver's license. And the party itself.

 By the way, the only one who ever turned my invitation down because they do not want to come is Andy sensei. That felt really weird because other teachers that I invited said yes. I don't really understand how our teacher-student is a problem, since it's just a dinner and hang out, like, it's not like we are doing something wrong.

GOT ACCEPTED TO LA SALLE!

YEAAAAY!!
I got accepted to La Salle!

All those hard work on my portfolio and last minute printing on very bad quality of printer (haha!) works wellll :D:D:D:D

Now I have one guarantee.

next stop is: Oregon State :) I hope I can make it there >< I really like it already :O

<:o)
Party!! not. If I got into one of US universities I am so celebrating it.

:D:D:D:D:D

CRUISE DAY 1- Singapore day2

From this log it will be called Cruise day-#.
On the fifth day it will have Singapore Day3.

Alright!! everybody's excited about going to cruise!

Lemme give you a brief expla-- (tomatoes thrown on me) OKAY! no explanation, just pictures!!

Our ship.

it is all fresh on my mind. We went to pack and stuff, and got breakfast, yadda yadda, got on a cab (separated, somehow) and because we were seperated, I was with Acen (Jason, my lil cousin.. from now on, we'll call him this) , his dad, and his mom, we actully arrived in different lobby and this caused us a little difficulty. we asked 2 people about where we should be if we are going to the cruise, and carrying a baggage is not the fun thing to do when you are looking around for the Lobby C.

Arrived in the place. We waited a while, yadda yadda, met Marvin's cousin forgot who his name was, filled out some forms, found out that wireless@SG is free and we had to sign up but when I sign up it gave me a F*cking blank page. Damn!

We are on board, we got our cards which is super important because without that, we are strangers on cruise.

What I don't like from the card is for 17 and below they gave us this 2 tiny holes WHICH, means that you are not an adult which means that the BAR is off limits once they saw that holes on the card and we can't peek into the Casino, and sometimes we will get some restrictions, explained later.

Hopping on board and being very excited... took loads of pictures..

So that's Caca, Mom, me, marvin, fiona from the left.

hopping on board, got into security.

Here is where I get to know him.

Nat. He is the youth staff in this ship and he really looked chinese.

We were told to get close to this table because we were kids and stuff, and we gathered around.

He started.

N: Okay, kids.. blah blah (telling us about kids)

The second he talks english and I was preparing to laugh because I thought he was singaporean, He speak with American accent. I was amazed.

and he got into this part where he gave the kids under 11 those red tags bracelet so if anything happens to this ship, the staff will take them first and rescue them. I was thinking, what can these kids do when they don't have parents with them? '

for us who are teens, 12 and above, we got this special program for teenagers which involved lots of teens stuffs.

After that, he told us about the 5pm on 5th deck but it turned out to be 4pm anyway, that emergency drill. Before we left, I asked him about his english.

S: Umm, random question. Are you singaporean?

N: No..

S: Oh, okay, coz you don't sound like one. Where are you from?

N: I don't sound like one? hahaha, I am from Canada.

S: ooh....

I thought he was just one of the land staffs or something.

so we went to our cabins, packed out our stuffs and let our moms do their stuffs, and we cruised out. I didn't bother about that teens stuff until after emergency and finding out that we had this cool pizza bar that serves anytime we want without charge.

and the internet isnt free.

you gotta pay $0.55 perminute. Expensive.

I found out that singaporean dollars do nothing. it's all American Dollars in here.

I went for a dip on the jacuzzi and wore my bikini :) but used a roxy top on it.. :\ I didn't wanna wet my hair so I had to clip it up. Yes, the Jacuzzi is  SUPER AWESOME!

I was wrapped in towel. I was here because my key card is with my cousin which is in her purse which she unintentionally gave it to her aunt. Hm...

so we have this dinner time on 8.30 every night with casual attire except tomorrow we have to use formals. I attended the dinner and found out that I was late to the Optix, which it all already started. So I went there as fast as possible and very surprised to find out that lots of teens are there, with the supervisor... NAT!

S: hey, you are that canadian guy!

N: Yeah, yeah, everyone's canadian, can I have your seapass card?

Clearly, he forgot about me. Maybe.

We had this 'teen' writing on the card that make it more obvious how I am not allowed to pose as adult.

They were finished with this psycho test.

A sec after that we were in groups, three groups. the other groups had this 2 Australian kids, Seb and Jamie, Ena, and I forgot who.

I am in this team with Filipinos and Indonesians. But I forgot whoever was there except me, my cousin, two indonesians from Surabaya, Tyrone, Dustin and others I forgot.

We had these fun games like If Nat tells us something we had to show him first, for examples:

"Switch shoes, girls with boys and vice versa"

so we did.

"Pose as honeymoon"

Me and Marvin cuddled (don't get this the wrong way. we are cousins) , but then he said,

"it has to be like this (the man carry the woman)"

The second he said that, I was carried by Marvin already.

"make a human pyramid!"

So we did. We have this smaller-sized girl that was on top, the big boys under, and me and another boy on the second level. We won.

"show me your piercings."

I gave my ear, Nat wanted more than ear, I got nothing, but the other group had it.

"show me tattoos!"

I got one on my hips on the back, so we got it, altough it's not permanent.

comment restricted. SUPER RESTRICTED. except "nice tattoo!!"

he got this thing that made us curious, is that he wouldnt tell us his age.

That successfully made us VERY SUPREMELY, including me, CURIOUS!

I say 27. we'll find out on a few logs later.

Then we have this Wii ping Pong Tournament. I am terrible at that.
I mean the table tennis part.

I found out it isnt as hard as it could be, so I won over my cousin Marvin and he seemed very unaccepting. Well, he's the one with the Wii and I'm the one only playing it in a vacation like 3 years ago.

I won until The finals and got beaten by this kid I didnt know and found out that he is Chris.

But I got silver medal, which Marvin wanted so badly :D

Cool, eh?

He even wanted to buy them! Nat said "you have to EARN your medal!"
Yeah Marvin, what he says!

Yup, did all the boasting after that :P to my parents, ladadada, and go to sleep to our very cute cabins.
Mine is with 2 single beds, a very small bathroom that only fits one person so whoever thought of showering together, nope that's not gonna happen!

Also a loveseat sofa, with a very small TV, like, not bigger than a macbook's screen and since I am always with the elves, we watch the re-runned Ben 10 all the time. Like how Ben 10 grew up with more aliens like echo echo, dealing with those slimy other aliens that turned out to be human, Kevin on their side, having a big crush on Gwen, and so-on.

I got new friends in Optix, like Tyrone, Dustin, Clarissa, etc.

So glad :)

Singapore Trip 2009-2010: DAY 1

This is fun. I love my singapore trip!

It all started at Xmas.

Before we go, I insisted on taking my CD player (I know that's old) so I can listen to music whenever I want, but apparently my parents had other plans. They had it their way. I was begging them to take my CD player and they said NO. A Straight NO.

We were supposed to leave in a minute when suddenly my parents called us (three kids) about our christmas present! it was badly wrapped in a white paper and written down with a bad handwriting. looks like santa claus lost his writing skills. We were wondering what that was until I saw the bottom part of thaat cute little box which are not undercover and I instantly...

"Oh my God. Oh Sh*T!"

There was it. The iPod Touch!

iPod TOUCH, Ladies and Gentlemen!!

 I Pod TOUCH! (8gb) I wanted a 32 gb!!! Oh well! :\

I was screaming. (duh) and I begged my parents to bring it to Singapore, without any songs in it, and I decided to take my laptop to the car, sync it for a while (I don't care if I only have 10 songs synced because our home is near airport) and bring it there. I wasn't totally right. I could take it, but what I was wrong at was that I didnt know it takes a short while to sync ALL of my songs which cost about 2GBs and all of my videos (stand-up comedians and Jon Schmidt)

There you go, My perfect xmas!


Arriving in Singapore:
Too bad I couldn't explore Changi Airport because we had to rush to our hotel and stuff. I was about to just skip between terminals. There's just too much to see and so little time!

We went to this hotel named Le Meridien which is now named Concorde.
Let's just call it Concorde.

Yes, it takes a little long to check in. Oh well! I still have iPod on me and we were actually going around to take a walk.

The funny thing is the coincidence we had. I play piano and I took course since I was a little kid. That's no the point. My teacher told me to buy some books in Singapore (because it's hard to find in here, like all the books are almost complete outside Indonesia) so I did. She said to me that the music store is right behind Le Meridien hotel, and once I knew that we were staying there we were all laughing. It is such coincidence. The adults (I went to Singapore with a bunch of elves a.k.a cousins which are smaller than me) actually booked the hotel like, MONTHS before we go and my teacher told me to buy that just A WEEK before we went.

It's just too much of coincidence. :) But Good ones.

We bought lots of books, yadda yadda, our luggage are heavy as ever, yadda yadda, went to Orchard road at night and it was freakingly crowded and we had to hold each other's hands to make sure we don't get lost, especially the elves the kids.

brief explanation about cousins:
These elves kids are from my dad's side, and since my dad is the head (like the big brother) from the dads, I am the biggest child. Second to me is Marvin, which is 2 years younger but 3 grades below me, a freshmen,  (yes I entered one year early) third to me is my lil sister number 1, Fiona which is an 8th grader, 4th is our two 7th grader, Jesslyn and Marsella and apparently they looked like their bonded with invisible rope because no matter where Marsella is Jesslyn tag along and vice versa. We have two sixth grader which are the two boys that looked bonded but fight frequently, Jason and Markell. Last but not least (literally) is my other sister, lil sis number 2, which is Stesha (call her Caca) , the 5th grader (I think) which has a bigger sized body than Jason, Markell, Jesslyn, and her sister Fiona.


Is that too short or too long? Pick one!
......
Too short?
Well I don't wanna type too much about those elves which whenever they see me they welcome me like I am the Godmother.

me: (opens door) Hi!

Them: HIII!! YAAAAAY!!! RANI IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!

me: (full with hugs and try to free self from dying of suffocating)

Yes, that happens.

We had a blast on shopping.

Change that.

They had a blast on shopping.

Change again.

The moms had a blast on shopping.

There you go.

We the kids (I know, I am a teenager who is childish enough to be in the kids section looking at Sylvanian families, Ben 10 Aliens, Little cute squeaky chicken and all those stuffs.) were in the I don't know which floor on the kids section. I had a little shopping of what I really loved and that's it. Well, I basically hate shopping, but Singapore IS a place to shop and everything's on SALE, even some cost only 20 sing-bucks.

Yes, this is squeaky. It makes the Tweet sounds.

So I bought myself a new sandal because my sandals are not very good looking anymore.
(ahem) Hey, it's comfortable.

So yadda yadda and we are gone, back to hotel, trying to sleep our of the excitement to go to CRUISE The next day!