Stoopid Hormones.

I'm blaming hormones for EVERYTHING now.

I get pissed at small things, I get angry at a whole bunch of things. I get depressed from things I can't get.
What have I become?

I dunno, I don't get myself.
I blame my hormones and me being such a woman about everything.
I guess, I kinda know now what if I had a clone... What if I met someone who resembles me a lot.
I'm super stubborn, and my clone is going to be super stubborn, and that's what happened here.

Gift List- UPDATED.

I updated this since the last time- There are some stuff I ALREADY acquired... and cross out and add things.

Just a made-up, fantasy wish list. Randomly ordered from the affordable to the most ridiculous thing ever. And YES, I want A WHOLE LOT of things- whether or not it make sense. So I grouped the 'currently make sense' and 'could make sense' and 'fantasy much?'. (these are all I can think of in hours. Could be more.) just for the sake of fun, I'm listing the price! :P



Everytime: MONEY MONEY MONEY.

Currently make sense:
- The place for rent in 37 Harkness Avenue #2. It's a bomb. $800 all included, furnished.

- The Sims 3: ALL EXPANSIONS. Stuff pack: $19.99, Expansion: $29.99
 (there's town life and Pets expansion left)

- Stacked up fridge. $50 for mini fridge. $20-50 for stacked up items
(It's stacked, but not right)

- CHEETOS! $39.95, for pack of 40.  I'm over it.

- a hand vacuum cleaner $20-50, depends on brand (I don't need it anymore)
- Printing paper $22 for 2500 sheets
- more black ankle-height socks $10-20
- A perfect sling bag/messenger bag $15-50, depends on model.
Sling bag:

Messenger bag:

- A Black boxy purse $20-150, depends on brand.
Example:

- New drapes and working blinds for my room $20-50 (I'm moving)
- The perfect sunglasses $20-300, depends on brand and model.  (got two)
- Hello kitty items- as long as it's not kiddy and not so pink. $-depends on item
- More big-sized hoodies. $12-60, depends on brand

- A complete art supplies $-depends on the definition 'complete'... but I'm sure it's very expensive to reach completion.
- Roller blades $40-100
- ice Skates $20-100
- Bicycle $50-500, depends on model and brand.
- A band. $n/a
- Black eyeliner pen- preferably from Clinique or Artistry $6-50, depends on use.
- The perfect swiveling office chair. $20-200, depends on brand and model
- Black frames $20-30 for a set of 10
- Tank tops- I need more white- 2 or 3, and one more grey. and one in dark blue, and one striped, one has the two little button,... yes I love tank tops. $15-40, depends on brand and model
- Roxy boardshort of my choice.. $25-45
EXAMPLE of boardshort:

- The whole set of Diary of a Wimpy Kid $6-9
- The perfect tote bag-canvas. $6-35, depends on model and brand.
Example of Canvas TOTE BAG:

- A white belt- mine is almost torn out.. $1-40, depends on brand.

- GLEE CD $5-20, depends on CD and compilation

- The whole season of How I Met Your Mother $175- season 1-5

- EXTRASUPERFAST internet.. $I don't know. 40?
- Start oil painting $n/a
- Hello kitty polaroid. $185
- Digital Polaroid. $239.95

- Bebe dress $30-150, depends on model
- Roland RD-700nx Digital Piano: It is awesome. $2599.00
- A black trench coat $50-150, depends on model and brand
E.g.

- Ankle Boots $20-250, depends on model and brand
- UGG boots $80-200, depends on model.

- Beats headphone- the coolest headphone ever. $179-300
- Silicon cover for Macbook Pro 15" keyboard $less than 5. Seriously.
- A warmer weather $n/a Too warm.
- A series of Nike Dunk high- the ankle-height with pads.

- Mozarella Cheese sticks <3 $5 for set of 10, I think.

- LOTSA teh botol! $4 for 6 boxes, I think.
- Snack packs $14 for a set, I think.

- Hi-C orange Raspberry $20 for 10 packs- around there.

- badminton racket- CARBONEX! $150-250, depends on model
- A birthday card saying: It's not the same without you. $1- a card does not cost that much.
- Xbox 360 20GB, guitar hero set- All in Black Friday!
- Save money enough to buy ^ that.

Could be pushed to make sense:
- new iPod Touch- Jailbroken, with my apps and games- nothing should be erased. $200-400, depends on the space.
- Amazon expedited shipping- free. $I don't know.
- Canon EOS 550D- with Macro lenses. $949.95 for the camera, $150-500 for lense- depends on model.
- no fat!*grin* $liposuction is out of question- it's not 100%..
- an Almond Boba Milk Tea dispenser $not yet invented, but the boba tapioca: $21.45
- Skateboard and the ability to ride it. $20-200, depends on model
- A zebra casing for my macbook pro 15" $20-30, but haven't seen any zebras.
- A series of converse- one by my design. $17-45, including the ankle-height
- Heated Toilet seat- oh it is cold.. $39.95
- Guava juice dispenser. Guava Juice box big $16.99 + dispenser: $20 (the cheapest and convenient)
- Passion Fruit Juice dispenser: same as Guava.
- Someone to physically lean on when I need it. $I don't want someone to be paid for this- I want someone to be sincere on this. Got this.

- to be able to meet my friends everyday $Same. Don't wanna pay for friends. Practically everyday.

- A regular, permanent hang-out place. $.....I don't think it'll cost. Maybe $3-4 for a drink?

- The person I like to like me :) tee hee. $is not buying a person. What for?

- THE BEST birthday party ever. $I don't know :)
- Get a job I like $college! <--- I'm working on my resume.

- My big furry bear! $whatever it costs to deliver.

- HAKKI! $same as above. Hakki is my chibi Jack Skellington doll, which I don't really have a picture of.
- The lamp switch to be next to my bed. $n/a
- start my own Boba Milk Tea Cafe. $Don't really know yet how much needed to open a place.
- My Sims 3 to not crash when I put inTeen mod hack. $nothing, just time and patience.
- Someone to hug when I cry for hours thinking about things that remind me of home. $don't wanna bribe for this! Poor anyone who's my hero.
- A TV IN MY ROOM! Never had one :( never thought I need it... until NOW! :( $180-300, just maybe 22" ones..
- Hello Kitty water dispenser $19.99
- Landlady to stay in Japan and never come back.

Fantasy Much?:
- A studio for my art..$600-2000 depends on the size and rent? if buy: I don't know.
- I'm not gonna lie. Beer and some of my choices of alcohol. No, I do not intend to get drunk, plus it's needed when it's cold. Asahi and Heineken preferred for beer. Plus, it's not everyday. Once in a few days or weeks, just for the sake of it. (-___-) $4.99 for Asahi, $12.99 for 12 of Heineken
- If it is going to be this cold- please include SNOW. $n/a
- An unlimited supply of Photo paper $10 for 100 sheets. times unlimited? Not exactly unlimited, but a lot.
- A penthouse, with ready-to-serve maid and butler. $I seriously don't know.
- The free Arrowhead water, everyday! I loath tap water. $58 per 6 gallon.
- Teleporter $has this been invented?
- Lamborghini Gallardo $199,000-$221,000
- That sexy white BMW I saw on Colorado- $12,000, 87' Accord, 2001 Accord, SHIFT STICK.
- Accord- not the newest one. Either 2001 or 2005. Though come to look at it, I kinda like 2010. 2001: $5,800-7,000 2005:$11,150 - $13,500 2010: $19,250-23,900. 87': less than 5000
- A game room- XBOX 360 with Kinect- with games I'm sure to have: Marvel vs. CAPCOM, Guitar Hero, Rock Band (of course, with all the kit- keyboard, drum, 2 guitars, microphone), GTA, Counter Strike, HALO, The sims 3, The Simpsons Hit and Run, Dragon Ball Z (hey it's quite fun, ok), Crash... I can't think of more. Games: $10-60? Xbox: $300-with kinect
- A SMOOTH WALL. Mine's kinda a little rocky so I can't really stick with Scotch tape. Damn it. $n/a
- No zits. Smooth, practically no pores. $n/a
- a perfect set of eyes. $lasik--maybe...

- Fashion line $don't know.

- Private Designer $I dunno.
- Private chef $200-360/week for family of 4.
- Personal masseuse ..$dunno
- A lake house $112k and more.
- A beach house $100k and going up.
- Someone to wake me up in the morning. $dunno. (not exactly, but getting there. LOL!)
- Change of my morning classes to somewhat noon... :P $very costly. (this sem got it)
- My friends to be here with me. $.......
- My clone :P $have not been invented. The world's ending.
- Unlimited points on Sims 3 $unlimited. hee hee.
- Private jet $6-50million
- A real personal account manager- to do my financial stuff for me. $don't know..
- To be able to design a house in The Sims 3 and poof it out. $FANTASY.
- A zebra wallpaper for my room! $9-50 (peel and stick to actual wallpaper)
- a girl friend (not girlfriend as in romantic term) which is always with me.. $no bribing

- my best friends. MY BEST FRIENDS I MISS THEM SO MUCH! (,>o<,) $n/a

- a sweet romantic story $don't want this to be paid!

- Pull and Bear. $how much for the whole company?

- A ticket back home $600-2000, depends on airline.

- To stop being a crybaby....for being homesick $n/a
- unlimited amount of facial tissue of my choice. $1.00 times infinity...heehee
- neverending toilet tissue! $1.00 tissue, times neverending?
- Fast metabolism $n/a
- private bathroom...with Jacuzzi and steam shower. $3600 and up. (I ALMOST GOT IT AARGH!)

- the ability to not grow old and stop whenever I want. $any invention?

- Have whatever I imagined come true in a snap- literally a snap. If I don't snap, don't make it true. I imagine a WHOLE LOT OF THINGS. Don't let me make bugs bunny or road runner real. :O $n/a
- The ability to fall asleep fast.  $10-20 for sleeping pills...lol
- UNLIMITED FREE CREDIT CARD! >:D - is going to abuse it! :D $like I said, it's free.

Why Nerds Kill Themselves

I just got off skype with my parents...
and like always, we had some arguments, mostly about money and college life. Hold on, it's always about that, it's always about me.
See, the problem is, I am the one who kinda talked back when I don't particularly agree with something. Now, one of the huge challenge for me is NOT TO TALK BACK... because...
Key to talk to your parents is to agree to everything they said. Mami and Papi if you're reading this... agree and MEAN it. Yeah, that's what I meant.
But yes. I knew, from like I was 15 or something, I shouldn't say anything contradicting, so that parents would think I get the point and understand it. No, I am not like that. I like to say what I think and what my opinions are. My teenager years are passed with that. I'm hard headed still, and I hit the wall almost every time and my parents would be there, saying "I told you so" to me. So I learn lessons the hard way.
Big Deal.
HUMONGOUS DEAL.
My parents knew this from since I was born, thus all the yelling and 12401924819028409 advices. They call it ADVICES, and it's strongly recommended that I do it, but it's actually, "It's an order and you have to do it anyway." So euphemism is, apparently, my parents favorite style of saying things. See, I'm kinda more of a literal way.. I say it out.

That's not good.

So about that. Why is this a problem to nerds? This is why. I'm not the typical nerd (I am a nerd but I'm the other type) who don't talk and say anything and just say yes to about everything their parents say, studies, no social life, and is super smart. Nope. I maintain my social life to keep me happy and not dull and let myself have a LIFE. Those nerds right there never disagree to authority, and they just, never let out their stress. The stress builds up... and there's where suicide comes in.

They are erupting in a way that took their lives.
It's not the parents' fault that he suicides, it's his entirely, it's a life-death choice. Who made and scluptured him/her into some nerd? The parents.




Exactly. I am currently learning this. So I did, today. Half of the conversation was my dad talking 9389493849 paragraphs about things. I tried slipping in some joke. It didn't ...work.
I did shut up for a moment there, and tried to be as nice as possible and I had to suck it in. Luckily it wasn't video call, so they wouldn't see my facial expression that looked like troll face combined with stroke face. Annoying. Disturbing.

Results?
I knew it. Like any other time I did that, I always end up getting stressed and angry after the thing because I'm the one who had to suck it in. I will have a super urge to punch the wall, too. I guess I have to learn... or I wouldn't be able to be taken seriously and my parents wouldn't think I'm mature enough.

Done.

So there you go.
ASDFG(@Q&ETLQX&*BR*QBW^DLXQN:INGXD(TG(>~~

Hormones.

So far....

- I've been eating a lot. HUMONGOUS LOT.
- Hormones acting up......
- Gone to the beach in the summer- Santa Monica. B-e-a-utiful. :D
- Tea spots is having a 'minimal 10 Dollar' for Card users. which sucked... because I seldom have paper with me.
- Tetris had been an ass. :(
- I'm juggling, again and again.
- It's hard, okay. Don't blame me if the pins clash or falls.
- I have been eating out... a lot. Sorry Dad.
- I have cooked.
- I have..................breathed. (is that the right grammar?)
- I EFFIN HATE MY **************** ENGLISH TEACHER MARHEINE. Curse you. You're 64 with ADD, you're hyper. You're old for Hell's sake, break a hip or two, will ya? PS: When do you expire?
- I got a B in life drawing class. HELL NO I DIDN'T. My puny teacher who eats snicker bars EVERY SINGLE DAY for your meal with charcoal hands and poked guys (which means you're a .....dirty fag. :O) you gave me- hard-ass working student, turned in everything with her best effort and did 125 sketches. You gave my classmate- never turned in anything, got one C, only did 30 sketches out of the compulsory 125- a B. How fair. HAVE YOU EATEN ENOUGH CHARCOAL YET?
- I wanted to go to the dean, but I did that in Spring Semester and ...it didn't turn out well and the dean prob. remembered me already.............. so yeah. I gave Attebery props for having a wife and kid.... :O
- Summer: sleep and eat. Oh, shit, fat.
- Is gonna spend my last week before I move to a new place getting revenge on my chinese bitches (housemates). Oh, I mean, one of them. (Hint: the fat bitch.)
- I have my hate troops.
- I feel like a pimp calling my housemates "chinese bitches." So far, the fat one is on sale and she just got a new TV out of the money that she should've paid me. >:D
- I want a LOT of things.
- to sum it up: I WANT MONEY! MONEY MONEY.
- "Love is nice, but it doesn't pay your rent, doesn't pay your bills, doesn't get you your clothes and food, doesn't pay for your kids if you have any, doesn't clear up your taxes, doesn't get your gas. Still believe in white horses and unconditional love?"
- e.g. if your man/woman starts to think that pickin' out the garbage can is a good idea to make a living- would you still be there?
- I want a job that pays me to be a slacker. Seriously.
-but I'm thinking about dropping my resume... in the Teaspots.

So there you go... I guess.

Summer is Making Things Go So Fast.

Summer IS.

So I took English 100 class with this teacher named Roger Marheine. Funny, ADD, and Hyper. Sarcastic and mean. Picks on students. I LIKE. He's a really good teacher. He is aware of things around you and he is truly, truly, funny. I hated history so much, but he made us all do the essay from history, and I didn't find it as boring. It's funny how he does that. He has tons of stories with him, whether or not it has him in it. Overall, is not recommended. Negative: other than he gave me a D, he's the head of the English thing, and he teaches 1A, 1B, 1C. That means he expect even more.

So I took another class- Life Drawing. Art 12A, with Craig Attebery. He's.... petite. He's dorky, does "ssssss" all the time, doesn't really dress to impress no more, he rides his bike to the campus, he wears over-sized aloha shirt with no aloha motives (I call them shirts, but a WHOLE lot of people thinks shirts and T-shirts are the same. Really?). He thinks there's always room for improvement but actually, he just never reached near perfection. Not a bad thing. It's needed for artists. He graduated from Art Center at the 80's. He also has stories, and he likes to share them. Most of his stories are art stories with funny students. I didn't like him so much at first, because he looks too weak as a teacher. He has to be tougher. He also said, "A lot of people asked me if there's a rule in proportion and I said, well, no..." Well there are tons...but being a little hypocritical, as the class went by, he talks about proportion and proportion. ......Alright. His explanation are really easy- he studied his field really hard and he's just good at it. Overall, he's cool.

So that's my classes, other than the writing lab which is 0.3 units and came with English 100 class. eh, nothing in it, it's like tutoring.

Well. Summer is fast. Essay everyday, 75 sketches by midterm-which just passed.
Yeah. and 50 sketches. Yeah. and the whole thing just passed.

It's not only the classes. You get used to moving so fast, it applied to people around you now. You talk to people like it has already been a week. You hang out like it's the second week. You go out with your friends end time just flies. You make little plans, and it's always a busy day.