Stoopid Hormones.

I'm blaming hormones for EVERYTHING now.

I get pissed at small things, I get angry at a whole bunch of things. I get depressed from things I can't get.
What have I become?

I dunno, I don't get myself.
I blame my hormones and me being such a woman about everything.
I guess, I kinda know now what if I had a clone... What if I met someone who resembles me a lot.
I'm super stubborn, and my clone is going to be super stubborn, and that's what happened here.

Gift List- UPDATED.

I updated this since the last time- There are some stuff I ALREADY acquired... and cross out and add things.

Just a made-up, fantasy wish list. Randomly ordered from the affordable to the most ridiculous thing ever. And YES, I want A WHOLE LOT of things- whether or not it make sense. So I grouped the 'currently make sense' and 'could make sense' and 'fantasy much?'. (these are all I can think of in hours. Could be more.) just for the sake of fun, I'm listing the price! :P



Everytime: MONEY MONEY MONEY.

Currently make sense:
- The place for rent in 37 Harkness Avenue #2. It's a bomb. $800 all included, furnished.

- The Sims 3: ALL EXPANSIONS. Stuff pack: $19.99, Expansion: $29.99
 (there's town life and Pets expansion left)

- Stacked up fridge. $50 for mini fridge. $20-50 for stacked up items
(It's stacked, but not right)

- CHEETOS! $39.95, for pack of 40.  I'm over it.

- a hand vacuum cleaner $20-50, depends on brand (I don't need it anymore)
- Printing paper $22 for 2500 sheets
- more black ankle-height socks $10-20
- A perfect sling bag/messenger bag $15-50, depends on model.
Sling bag:

Messenger bag:

- A Black boxy purse $20-150, depends on brand.
Example:

- New drapes and working blinds for my room $20-50 (I'm moving)
- The perfect sunglasses $20-300, depends on brand and model.  (got two)
- Hello kitty items- as long as it's not kiddy and not so pink. $-depends on item
- More big-sized hoodies. $12-60, depends on brand

- A complete art supplies $-depends on the definition 'complete'... but I'm sure it's very expensive to reach completion.
- Roller blades $40-100
- ice Skates $20-100
- Bicycle $50-500, depends on model and brand.
- A band. $n/a
- Black eyeliner pen- preferably from Clinique or Artistry $6-50, depends on use.
- The perfect swiveling office chair. $20-200, depends on brand and model
- Black frames $20-30 for a set of 10
- Tank tops- I need more white- 2 or 3, and one more grey. and one in dark blue, and one striped, one has the two little button,... yes I love tank tops. $15-40, depends on brand and model
- Roxy boardshort of my choice.. $25-45
EXAMPLE of boardshort:

- The whole set of Diary of a Wimpy Kid $6-9
- The perfect tote bag-canvas. $6-35, depends on model and brand.
Example of Canvas TOTE BAG:

- A white belt- mine is almost torn out.. $1-40, depends on brand.

- GLEE CD $5-20, depends on CD and compilation

- The whole season of How I Met Your Mother $175- season 1-5

- EXTRASUPERFAST internet.. $I don't know. 40?
- Start oil painting $n/a
- Hello kitty polaroid. $185
- Digital Polaroid. $239.95

- Bebe dress $30-150, depends on model
- Roland RD-700nx Digital Piano: It is awesome. $2599.00
- A black trench coat $50-150, depends on model and brand
E.g.

- Ankle Boots $20-250, depends on model and brand
- UGG boots $80-200, depends on model.

- Beats headphone- the coolest headphone ever. $179-300
- Silicon cover for Macbook Pro 15" keyboard $less than 5. Seriously.
- A warmer weather $n/a Too warm.
- A series of Nike Dunk high- the ankle-height with pads.

- Mozarella Cheese sticks <3 $5 for set of 10, I think.

- LOTSA teh botol! $4 for 6 boxes, I think.
- Snack packs $14 for a set, I think.

- Hi-C orange Raspberry $20 for 10 packs- around there.

- badminton racket- CARBONEX! $150-250, depends on model
- A birthday card saying: It's not the same without you. $1- a card does not cost that much.
- Xbox 360 20GB, guitar hero set- All in Black Friday!
- Save money enough to buy ^ that.

Could be pushed to make sense:
- new iPod Touch- Jailbroken, with my apps and games- nothing should be erased. $200-400, depends on the space.
- Amazon expedited shipping- free. $I don't know.
- Canon EOS 550D- with Macro lenses. $949.95 for the camera, $150-500 for lense- depends on model.
- no fat!*grin* $liposuction is out of question- it's not 100%..
- an Almond Boba Milk Tea dispenser $not yet invented, but the boba tapioca: $21.45
- Skateboard and the ability to ride it. $20-200, depends on model
- A zebra casing for my macbook pro 15" $20-30, but haven't seen any zebras.
- A series of converse- one by my design. $17-45, including the ankle-height
- Heated Toilet seat- oh it is cold.. $39.95
- Guava juice dispenser. Guava Juice box big $16.99 + dispenser: $20 (the cheapest and convenient)
- Passion Fruit Juice dispenser: same as Guava.
- Someone to physically lean on when I need it. $I don't want someone to be paid for this- I want someone to be sincere on this. Got this.

- to be able to meet my friends everyday $Same. Don't wanna pay for friends. Practically everyday.

- A regular, permanent hang-out place. $.....I don't think it'll cost. Maybe $3-4 for a drink?

- The person I like to like me :) tee hee. $is not buying a person. What for?

- THE BEST birthday party ever. $I don't know :)
- Get a job I like $college! <--- I'm working on my resume.

- My big furry bear! $whatever it costs to deliver.

- HAKKI! $same as above. Hakki is my chibi Jack Skellington doll, which I don't really have a picture of.
- The lamp switch to be next to my bed. $n/a
- start my own Boba Milk Tea Cafe. $Don't really know yet how much needed to open a place.
- My Sims 3 to not crash when I put inTeen mod hack. $nothing, just time and patience.
- Someone to hug when I cry for hours thinking about things that remind me of home. $don't wanna bribe for this! Poor anyone who's my hero.
- A TV IN MY ROOM! Never had one :( never thought I need it... until NOW! :( $180-300, just maybe 22" ones..
- Hello Kitty water dispenser $19.99
- Landlady to stay in Japan and never come back.

Fantasy Much?:
- A studio for my art..$600-2000 depends on the size and rent? if buy: I don't know.
- I'm not gonna lie. Beer and some of my choices of alcohol. No, I do not intend to get drunk, plus it's needed when it's cold. Asahi and Heineken preferred for beer. Plus, it's not everyday. Once in a few days or weeks, just for the sake of it. (-___-) $4.99 for Asahi, $12.99 for 12 of Heineken
- If it is going to be this cold- please include SNOW. $n/a
- An unlimited supply of Photo paper $10 for 100 sheets. times unlimited? Not exactly unlimited, but a lot.
- A penthouse, with ready-to-serve maid and butler. $I seriously don't know.
- The free Arrowhead water, everyday! I loath tap water. $58 per 6 gallon.
- Teleporter $has this been invented?
- Lamborghini Gallardo $199,000-$221,000
- That sexy white BMW I saw on Colorado- $12,000, 87' Accord, 2001 Accord, SHIFT STICK.
- Accord- not the newest one. Either 2001 or 2005. Though come to look at it, I kinda like 2010. 2001: $5,800-7,000 2005:$11,150 - $13,500 2010: $19,250-23,900. 87': less than 5000
- A game room- XBOX 360 with Kinect- with games I'm sure to have: Marvel vs. CAPCOM, Guitar Hero, Rock Band (of course, with all the kit- keyboard, drum, 2 guitars, microphone), GTA, Counter Strike, HALO, The sims 3, The Simpsons Hit and Run, Dragon Ball Z (hey it's quite fun, ok), Crash... I can't think of more. Games: $10-60? Xbox: $300-with kinect
- A SMOOTH WALL. Mine's kinda a little rocky so I can't really stick with Scotch tape. Damn it. $n/a
- No zits. Smooth, practically no pores. $n/a
- a perfect set of eyes. $lasik--maybe...

- Fashion line $don't know.

- Private Designer $I dunno.
- Private chef $200-360/week for family of 4.
- Personal masseuse ..$dunno
- A lake house $112k and more.
- A beach house $100k and going up.
- Someone to wake me up in the morning. $dunno. (not exactly, but getting there. LOL!)
- Change of my morning classes to somewhat noon... :P $very costly. (this sem got it)
- My friends to be here with me. $.......
- My clone :P $have not been invented. The world's ending.
- Unlimited points on Sims 3 $unlimited. hee hee.
- Private jet $6-50million
- A real personal account manager- to do my financial stuff for me. $don't know..
- To be able to design a house in The Sims 3 and poof it out. $FANTASY.
- A zebra wallpaper for my room! $9-50 (peel and stick to actual wallpaper)
- a girl friend (not girlfriend as in romantic term) which is always with me.. $no bribing

- my best friends. MY BEST FRIENDS I MISS THEM SO MUCH! (,>o<,) $n/a

- a sweet romantic story $don't want this to be paid!

- Pull and Bear. $how much for the whole company?

- A ticket back home $600-2000, depends on airline.

- To stop being a crybaby....for being homesick $n/a
- unlimited amount of facial tissue of my choice. $1.00 times infinity...heehee
- neverending toilet tissue! $1.00 tissue, times neverending?
- Fast metabolism $n/a
- private bathroom...with Jacuzzi and steam shower. $3600 and up. (I ALMOST GOT IT AARGH!)

- the ability to not grow old and stop whenever I want. $any invention?

- Have whatever I imagined come true in a snap- literally a snap. If I don't snap, don't make it true. I imagine a WHOLE LOT OF THINGS. Don't let me make bugs bunny or road runner real. :O $n/a
- The ability to fall asleep fast.  $10-20 for sleeping pills...lol
- UNLIMITED FREE CREDIT CARD! >:D - is going to abuse it! :D $like I said, it's free.

Why Nerds Kill Themselves

I just got off skype with my parents...
and like always, we had some arguments, mostly about money and college life. Hold on, it's always about that, it's always about me.
See, the problem is, I am the one who kinda talked back when I don't particularly agree with something. Now, one of the huge challenge for me is NOT TO TALK BACK... because...
Key to talk to your parents is to agree to everything they said. Mami and Papi if you're reading this... agree and MEAN it. Yeah, that's what I meant.
But yes. I knew, from like I was 15 or something, I shouldn't say anything contradicting, so that parents would think I get the point and understand it. No, I am not like that. I like to say what I think and what my opinions are. My teenager years are passed with that. I'm hard headed still, and I hit the wall almost every time and my parents would be there, saying "I told you so" to me. So I learn lessons the hard way.
Big Deal.
HUMONGOUS DEAL.
My parents knew this from since I was born, thus all the yelling and 12401924819028409 advices. They call it ADVICES, and it's strongly recommended that I do it, but it's actually, "It's an order and you have to do it anyway." So euphemism is, apparently, my parents favorite style of saying things. See, I'm kinda more of a literal way.. I say it out.

That's not good.

So about that. Why is this a problem to nerds? This is why. I'm not the typical nerd (I am a nerd but I'm the other type) who don't talk and say anything and just say yes to about everything their parents say, studies, no social life, and is super smart. Nope. I maintain my social life to keep me happy and not dull and let myself have a LIFE. Those nerds right there never disagree to authority, and they just, never let out their stress. The stress builds up... and there's where suicide comes in.

They are erupting in a way that took their lives.
It's not the parents' fault that he suicides, it's his entirely, it's a life-death choice. Who made and scluptured him/her into some nerd? The parents.




Exactly. I am currently learning this. So I did, today. Half of the conversation was my dad talking 9389493849 paragraphs about things. I tried slipping in some joke. It didn't ...work.
I did shut up for a moment there, and tried to be as nice as possible and I had to suck it in. Luckily it wasn't video call, so they wouldn't see my facial expression that looked like troll face combined with stroke face. Annoying. Disturbing.

Results?
I knew it. Like any other time I did that, I always end up getting stressed and angry after the thing because I'm the one who had to suck it in. I will have a super urge to punch the wall, too. I guess I have to learn... or I wouldn't be able to be taken seriously and my parents wouldn't think I'm mature enough.

Done.

So there you go.
ASDFG(@Q&ETLQX&*BR*QBW^DLXQN:INGXD(TG(>~~

Hormones.

So far....

- I've been eating a lot. HUMONGOUS LOT.
- Hormones acting up......
- Gone to the beach in the summer- Santa Monica. B-e-a-utiful. :D
- Tea spots is having a 'minimal 10 Dollar' for Card users. which sucked... because I seldom have paper with me.
- Tetris had been an ass. :(
- I'm juggling, again and again.
- It's hard, okay. Don't blame me if the pins clash or falls.
- I have been eating out... a lot. Sorry Dad.
- I have cooked.
- I have..................breathed. (is that the right grammar?)
- I EFFIN HATE MY **************** ENGLISH TEACHER MARHEINE. Curse you. You're 64 with ADD, you're hyper. You're old for Hell's sake, break a hip or two, will ya? PS: When do you expire?
- I got a B in life drawing class. HELL NO I DIDN'T. My puny teacher who eats snicker bars EVERY SINGLE DAY for your meal with charcoal hands and poked guys (which means you're a .....dirty fag. :O) you gave me- hard-ass working student, turned in everything with her best effort and did 125 sketches. You gave my classmate- never turned in anything, got one C, only did 30 sketches out of the compulsory 125- a B. How fair. HAVE YOU EATEN ENOUGH CHARCOAL YET?
- I wanted to go to the dean, but I did that in Spring Semester and ...it didn't turn out well and the dean prob. remembered me already.............. so yeah. I gave Attebery props for having a wife and kid.... :O
- Summer: sleep and eat. Oh, shit, fat.
- Is gonna spend my last week before I move to a new place getting revenge on my chinese bitches (housemates). Oh, I mean, one of them. (Hint: the fat bitch.)
- I have my hate troops.
- I feel like a pimp calling my housemates "chinese bitches." So far, the fat one is on sale and she just got a new TV out of the money that she should've paid me. >:D
- I want a LOT of things.
- to sum it up: I WANT MONEY! MONEY MONEY.
- "Love is nice, but it doesn't pay your rent, doesn't pay your bills, doesn't get you your clothes and food, doesn't pay for your kids if you have any, doesn't clear up your taxes, doesn't get your gas. Still believe in white horses and unconditional love?"
- e.g. if your man/woman starts to think that pickin' out the garbage can is a good idea to make a living- would you still be there?
- I want a job that pays me to be a slacker. Seriously.
-but I'm thinking about dropping my resume... in the Teaspots.

So there you go... I guess.

Summer is Making Things Go So Fast.

Summer IS.

So I took English 100 class with this teacher named Roger Marheine. Funny, ADD, and Hyper. Sarcastic and mean. Picks on students. I LIKE. He's a really good teacher. He is aware of things around you and he is truly, truly, funny. I hated history so much, but he made us all do the essay from history, and I didn't find it as boring. It's funny how he does that. He has tons of stories with him, whether or not it has him in it. Overall, is not recommended. Negative: other than he gave me a D, he's the head of the English thing, and he teaches 1A, 1B, 1C. That means he expect even more.

So I took another class- Life Drawing. Art 12A, with Craig Attebery. He's.... petite. He's dorky, does "ssssss" all the time, doesn't really dress to impress no more, he rides his bike to the campus, he wears over-sized aloha shirt with no aloha motives (I call them shirts, but a WHOLE lot of people thinks shirts and T-shirts are the same. Really?). He thinks there's always room for improvement but actually, he just never reached near perfection. Not a bad thing. It's needed for artists. He graduated from Art Center at the 80's. He also has stories, and he likes to share them. Most of his stories are art stories with funny students. I didn't like him so much at first, because he looks too weak as a teacher. He has to be tougher. He also said, "A lot of people asked me if there's a rule in proportion and I said, well, no..." Well there are tons...but being a little hypocritical, as the class went by, he talks about proportion and proportion. ......Alright. His explanation are really easy- he studied his field really hard and he's just good at it. Overall, he's cool.

So that's my classes, other than the writing lab which is 0.3 units and came with English 100 class. eh, nothing in it, it's like tutoring.

Well. Summer is fast. Essay everyday, 75 sketches by midterm-which just passed.
Yeah. and 50 sketches. Yeah. and the whole thing just passed.

It's not only the classes. You get used to moving so fast, it applied to people around you now. You talk to people like it has already been a week. You hang out like it's the second week. You go out with your friends end time just flies. You make little plans, and it's always a busy day.

Imaginations and Thoughts and Reality

Why the title?
Well, have you ever been told "be careful what you wish for"? I guess most people would know.
Sometimes, it's not what you wish for, sometimes, it's what you don't wish for, sometimes, it's what you just had a glimpse of, sometimes is your pure thought of 'what if's' and sometimes, it's only imaginations. If there are supporting circumstances, then you can MAKE your good wish happen. What if, there aren't any supporting circumstances, hypothetically speaking? It'll be like playing Spin the wheel, or roulette. Where it lands, nobody knows. It's by chance, picked randomly. What are the chances of what you wished for happens?

This leads to the saying, "if you believe it hard enough, you'll get it eventually." That's how optimism also comes along. The simple example is, the glass is half full, not half empty. So you don't think about the negative and think about positive.... but even positive had a negative side. Be careful of the choices of words! Saying "Oh roaches please don't come here" and saying "Oh roaches please go away" is different. It might mean the same, but it has different feeling. That's the optimism crap. True optimist will think, "please go away" rather than "don't come here." in "go away" you make no space for negativity. In "Don't come here" you make room for the roaches to 'come here'.

Another example? Let's say you're 20 feet away from your friend in a battle field. Rather than saying "don't come near me!" you say, "get away!" why? maybe your friend can't hear you as clear, so what he/she got is, "come near me". Ain't it more straightforward to say "get away?" clear, straight, and it's also an order. That's why a good instructions on the manual does not say "You can put the sugar in the flour mix" it said, orderingly, "put the sugar in the mix"

Only in small circumstances should you use optimist-pessimist. When trying to lure someone on purpose. Like in a game where you need a strategy, "please don't come here" and then a lot of people would purposely go near you and then you attack- those kind of things.

BTW. That made sense, didn't it?

No? Well you should read it again. It made sense. You just didn't get it.

So far...
- I have smiled and laughed and cried. (duh)
- I am still homesick.
- I want to earn money but I don't know how.
- I've gone grocery shopping more than last month.
- I need new sponge for my dishes! Someone took it and threw it away I think :(
- I dislike my housemates more. I am thinking about moving.
- I hate my summer schedule!
- I have to download more ghetto songs.
- I WANT TO WATCH A BUNCH OF MOVIES! Hangover 2, Kungfu Panda 2, Cars 2, Bridesmaids, Super 8, X-MEN, Mr. Popper's Penguin.. Harry Potter..
- I still think drinking age is overrated.
- I don't think drinking is something bad- as long as it's responsible and it doesn't bother anyone around you.
- I still want a car, therefore I wanna save money therefore I wanna get a job.
- I have felt and I am going to avoid it again... I thought I was ready to feel.
- I went to Anime Expo 2011 and dressed up rocking.
- I did my own nails.. pretty awesome. 2 days work.
- I have done shopping 2 weeks in a row... God. Not my fault the designer in Forever 21 are awesome and there's a 6-9 dollar sale.
- I have lost 5 lbs again....though I don't feel so.
- The cute guy sitting right next to me in English class dropped the class. Awww. Hee hee. Well, till we meet again, cute guy! LOL.
- I enjoy my art class but not the fact that it's 8AM
- Once we had a male model and I was sitting up front. That thing is dangling just about 3 feet from me. Holy moly details.

Be Specific of What You Wish For- God is Busy Doing Other Wishes.

I'm serious. I think God is. If not, then God should know what I really, exactly wanted. Not what I wanted briefly.

Alright.

So far:

- I am totally never gonna tell my parents about my blog now.

- you ask why? coz I start to talk about fucked up things.

- This blog ...apparently... is not meant to be advertised. I have been using vague, metaphorical words anyway..

- I'm juggling. Okay, not exactly, but might be juggling.. or soon to be. I hope that's not a problem later on.

- I'm trying! I'm trying!! Don't pressure me, I don't work good and I break under it.

- I think there should be time interval between someone falling and actually lands.

- I like a nice stroll on the beach and talking about what each other like, joke about things.. just like normal people! :|

- I have never slow danced before.

- I can't help it. I love fake nails!

- The little things that guys do like giving their jacket when I'm cold is one of the big issue that girls actually respect a WHOLE FUCKING LOT. 

- I know I'm in US right now.. and most chance I'll get is with a westerner... but I have my own issues and dignity and family name to carry, alright? Some of these are not compatible with you westerners. I know, I know. That's also why I DATE, not be in a relationship.

- I have choices I have to make, sometimes, they make me in dilemma.
- I like dilemma better than no choice at all.

- Stalking people on facebook is not wrong. Your facebook is PUBLIC. If you don't want people to stalk you then well don't put anything on facebook. it's PUBLIC. Just ... put your privacy on or sumthin.

- I have been addicted to Russell Peters :D

- I have recently produced one of my proudest art work.
- I might be heading off to some fucked up, mixed up, future. I hope when I say fucked up it means it in the good way. 

- I don't know why, but coffee, especially in the morning, makes my stomach gurgle, plus extra gurgles if I haven't had any meals yet.

- OK, I might have exaggerated when I said my housemates are lesbian gangbangers... (you actually bought that?) but one, in particular... talked behind me. Like I don't know what they're talking about. Sometimes I pick up stuff that I understand and it made sense. 

- What is so wrong about drinking? I don't drink everyday, not even regularly. I stay sober when I do. It doesn't affect anyone else. I don't go around gettin' drunk and toilet-paper a friend's house. 

- One of my friends said this in his facebook: "There are only 2 things you can do when you are in a relationship: 1. Get married. 2. break up." That's effin' right. Well. That's why we invent "open relationship". 

- Now that I'm really in a multicultural country, I mock everyone equally, including my people, so there's not a reason why anyone should be mad when I mock them. You guys mock us Chinese with yellow skin, squinty eyes, short, funny accent, whatever. So? I mean we do have them. I get like "Are you phillipino" all the time. "you're kinda dark for chinese indo" Yeah, I am. Don't know how it got there, but it did. "you guys steal our land, make chinatown, etc." Well, we're kinda united. you can make an effort on making "american town" in china. Good Luck. 

- "this kind of race are racist towards people" cmon. we all get generalized. you laugh at Russell Peters. he's still alive. I'm alive. I dunno if one day chinese mob would kill me for mocking them too far... but right now, so far so good. 

- Racism is overrated. I don't know why, probably because you black (African-American) people are still mad and hyper-sensitive about the slave stuff, but you have got to admit that you guys are black, Caucasians are white, Chinese are yellow, Indians are brown, ASEAN (southeast asians) are tanned-brown-khaki, Arabs are ...darker than tanned-brown-khaki. We're not discriminating you. We're just pointing out who you are. "Hey, black people" "WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU SAY?" Seriously. You have got to start looking at your own skin. I mean, if people call me, "Hey you chinese!" I'd be like, "how the hell did you even know? btw nice guess." or "Hey INDO! Yeah Imma talking to you you brown-tanned-khaki" I'd be like, "Oh you noticed my skin color. Wassup?" C'mon. It's just skin color. There's no more discrimination. You black people get mad when we call you that but sometimes you call them white people "hey white boy" and they don't go super sensitive and say, "WHAT THE HECK DID YOU CALL ME?"

-You get mad only when... people... call you stuff that you know you hate to be called. If you are so, like, if you are short, and people call you, "Hey shorty" well you're short. so? If you're freakishly tall, "Hey tall guy" and??? I mean, you are. except harsh words, like midget. or whatever worse. if you're not what they said you are, like if you're not a golddigger and they call you, "hey gold digger!" then what you gotta be mad about?

Dehydrated

Alright so far:

- I have discovered the fakeness of a few people
- One, in particular
- I have tried to stop putting the puzzles in
- I have tried to ignore the fact that someone is getting fake-er by the day
- I have used tank tops :)
- I have pictured myself in weird make-up :D
- I have gotten compliment from that.
- I have gotten a good friend. Or someone who I know isn't fake for that matter.
- I have gotten paranoid.
- I have liked the song Afterlife- Avenged Sevenfold and in my iTunes, I have played in 306 times. God know how much I've played it combined with the one in the iPod. Repeat for the whole week.
- I have abused my legs to an extend where I walk more than 10 blocks a day
- I have got to shower in the morning, not night or afternoon.
- I rely on starbucks double shot a lot to wake up. or I'll just stay sleepy the whole day.
- I enjoy using fake nails.
- I have misused the use of BB pictures. ahahaha.
- I have been addicted to RedBox, the renting movie overnight for $1.
- I have been having my hair curled.
- I have to set my alarm one and a half hour before the intended time of class, plus, I have three alarms; iPod, the classic no-snooze alarm, and my cellphone, each set in different times so they will ring simultaneously and continuously. Then, about 20 minutes before class, I get up, drink water, curl accidentally straightened hair, brush teeth, wash face, slap the books and other stuff in, wear clothes, and get myself a double shot starbucks while running to school.
- I eat lunch and breakfast together.
- My regular is Almond Boba Milk Tea, Large.
- I have yet to confront a lot of people
- I have cried because I'm paranoid
- I don't know what's going on and I don't know now to fix it.
- I have to get studying. I got an A for my Art history quiz :)

So there you go.

Gift/Wish List

Just a made-up, fantasy wish list. Randomly ordered from the affordable to the most ridiculous thing ever. And YES, I want A WHOLE LOT of things- whether or not it make sense. So I grouped the 'currently make sense' and 'could make sense' and 'fantasy much?'. (these are all I can think of in hours. Could be more.) just for the sake of fun, I'm listing the price! :P

Currently make sense:

- The Sims 3: ALL EXPANSIONS. Stuff pack: $19.99, Expansion: $29.99

- Stacked up fridge. $50 for mini fridge. $20-50 for stacked up items

- CHEETOS! $39.95, for pack of 40.

- a hand vacuum cleaner $20-50, depends on brand
- Printing paper $22 for 2500 sheets
- more black ankle-height socks $10-20
- A perfect sling bag/messenger bag $15-50, depends on model.
Sling bag:

Messenger bag:

- A Black boxy purse $20-150, depends on brand.
Example:

- New drapes and working blinds for my room $20-50
- The perfect sunglasses $20-300, depends on brand and model.
- Hello kitty items- as long as it's not kiddy and not so pink. $-depends on item
- More big-sized hoodies. $12-60, depends on brand

- A complete art supplies $-depends on the definition 'complete'... but I'm sure it's very expensive to reach completion.
- Roller blades $40-100
- ice Skates $20-100
- Bicycle $50-500, depends on model and brand.
- A band. $n/a
- Black eyeliner pen- preferably from Clinique or Artistry $6-50, depends on use.
- The perfect swiveling office chair. $20-200, depends on brand and model
- Black frames $20-30 for a set of 10
- Tank tops- I need more white- 2 or 3, and one more grey. and one in dark blue, and one striped, one has the two little button,... yes I love tank tops. $15-40, depends on brand and model
- Roxy boardshort of my choice.. $25-45
EXAMPLE of boardshort:

- The whole set of Diary of a Wimpy Kid $6-9
- The perfect tote bag-canvas. $6-35, depends on model and brand.
Example of Canvas TOTE BAG:

- A white belt- mine is almost torn out.. $1-40, depends on brand.

- GLEE CD $5-20, depends on CD and compilation

- The whole season of How I Met Your Mother $175- season 1-5

- EXTRASUPERFAST internet.. $I don't know. 40?
- Start oil painting $n/a
- Digital Polaroid. $239.95

- Bebe dress $30-150, depends on model
- Roland RD-700nx Digital Piano: It is awesome. $2599.00
- A black trench coat $50-150, depends on model and brand
E.g.

- Ankle Boots $20-250, depends on model and brand
- UGG boots $80-200, depends on model.

- Beats headphone- the coolest headphone ever. $179-300
- Silicon cover for Macbook Pro 15" keyboard $less than 5. Seriously.
- A warmer weather $n/a
- A series of Nike Dunk high- the ankle-height with pads.

- Mozarella Cheese sticks <3 $5 for set of 10, I think.

- LOTSA teh botol! $4 for 6 boxes, I think.
- Snack packs $14 for a set, I think.

- Hi-C orange $20 for 10 packs- around there.

- badminton racket- CARBONEX! $150-250, depends on model
- A birthday card saying: It's not the same without you. $1- a card does not cost that much.
- A birthday card saying: We're always here for you. $1- a card does not cost that much.
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Could be pushed to make sense:
- new iPod Touch- Jailbroken, with my apps and games- nothing should be erased. $200-400, depends on the space.
- Amazon expedited shipping- free. $I don't know.
- Canon EOS 550D- with Macro lenses. $949.95 for the camera, $150-500 for lense- depends on model.
- no fat!*grin* $liposuction is out of question- it's not 100%..
- an Almond Boba Milk Tea dispenser $not yet invented, but the boba tapioca: $21.45
- Skateboard and the ability to ride it. $20-200, depends on model
- A zebra casing for my macbook pro 15" $20-30, but haven't seen any zebras.
- A series of converse- one by my design. $17-45, including the ankle-height
- Heated Toilet seat- oh it is cold.. $39.95
- Guava juice dispenser. Guava Juice box big $16.99 + dispenser: $20 (the cheapest and convenient)
- Passion Fruit Juice dispenser: same as Guava.
- Someone to physically lean on when I need it. $I don't want someone to be paid for this- I want someone to be sincere on this.

- to be able to meet my friends everyday $Same. Don't wanna pay for friends.

- A regular, permanent hang-out place. $.....I don't think it'll cost. Maybe $3-4 for a drink?

- The person I like to like me :) tee hee. $is not buying a person. What for?

- THE BEST birthday party ever. $I don't know :)
- Get a job I like $college!

- My big furry bear! $whatever it costs to deliver.

- HAKKI! $same as above. Hakki is my chibi Jack Skellington doll, which I don't really have a picture of.
- The lamp switch to be next to my bed. $n/a
- start my own Boba Milk Tea Cafe. $Don't really know yet how much needed to open a place.
- My Sims 3 to not crash when I put inTeen mod hack. $nothing, just time and patience.
- Someone to hug when I cry for hours thinking about things that remind me of home. $don't wanna bribe for this!
- A TV IN MY ROOM! Never had one :( never thought I need it... until NOW! :( $180-300, just maybe 22" ones..
- Hello Kitty water dispenser $19.99
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Fantasy Much?:
- A studio for my art..$600-2000 depends on the size and rent? if buy: I don't know.
- I'm not gonna lie. Beer and some of my choices of alcohol. No, I do not intend to get drunk, plus it's needed when it's cold. Asahi and Heineken preferred for beer. Plus, it's not everyday. Once in a few days or weeks, just for the sake of it. (-___-) $4.99 for Asahi, $12.99 for 12 of Heineken
- If it is going to be this cold- please include SNOW. $n/a
- An unlimited supply of Photo paper $10 for 100 sheets. times unlimited?
- A penthouse, with ready-to-serve maid and butler. $I seriously don't know.
- The free Arrowhead water, everyday! I loath tap water. $58 per 6 gallon.
- Teleporter $has this been invented?
- Lamborghini Gallardo $199,000-$221,000
- Audi A4 $31,730 - $33,934
- Accord- not the newest one. Either 2001 or 2005. Though come to look at it, I kinda like 2010. 2001: $5,800-7,000 2005:$11,150 - $13,500 2010: $19,250-23,900
- A game room- XBOX 360 with Kinect- with games I'm sure to have: Marvel vs. CAPCOM, Guitar Hero, Rock Band (of course, with all the kit- keyboard, drum, 2 guitars, microphone), GTA, Counter Strike, HALO, The sims 3, The Simpsons Hit and Run, Dragon Ball Z (hey it's quite fun, ok), Crash... I can't think of more. Games: $10-60? Xbox: $300-with kinect
- A SMOOTH WALL. Mine's kinda a little rocky so I can't really stick with Scotch tape. Damn it. $n/a
- No zits. Smooth, practically no pores. $n/a
- a perfect set of eyes. $lasik--maybe...

- Fashion line $don't know.

- Private Designer $I dunno.
- Private chef $200-360/week for family of 4.
- Personal massager..$dunno
- A lake house $112k and more.
- A beach house $100k and going up.
- Someone to wake me up in the morning. $dunno.
- Change of my morning classes to somewhat noon... :P $very costly.
- My friends to be here with me. $.......
- My clone :P $have not been invented.
- Unlimited points on Sims 3 $unlimited. hee hee.
- Private jet $6-50million
- A real personal account manager- to do my financial stuff for me. $don't know..
- To be able to design a house in The Sims 3 and poof it out. $FANTASY.
- A zebra wallpaper for my room! $9-50 (peel and stick to actual wallpaper)
- a girl friend (not girlfriend as in romantic term) which is always with me.. $no bribing

- my best friends. MY BEST FRIENDS I MISS THEM SO MUCH! (,>o<,) $n/a

- a sweet romantic story $don't want this to be paid!

- Pull and Bear. $how much for the whole company?

- A ticket back home $600-2000, depends on airline.

- To stop being a crybaby....for being homesick $n/a
- unlimited amount of facial tissue of my choice. $1.00 times infinity...heehee
- neverending toilet tissue! $1.00 tissue, times neverending?
- Fast metabolism $n/a
- private bathroom...with Jacuzzi and steam shower. $3600 and up.

- the ability to not grow old and stop whenever I want. $any invention?

- Have whatever I imagined come true in a snap- literally a snap. If I don't snap, don't make it true. I imagine a WHOLE LOT OF THINGS. Don't let me make bugs bunny or road runner real. :O $n/a
- The ability to fall asleep fast.  $10-20 for sleeping pills...lol
- UNLIMITED FREE CREDIT CARD! >:D - is going to abuse it! :D $like I said, it's free.

So far- After school starts!

So far:

- College Started 2 days ago
- I loved Art History
- I have been late
- I have a little insomnia problem
- I have to spend a lot more on art supplies than on books
- My internet gets worse
- I'm starting to think about mooching my friend's TV networks
- I miss POKER SO BAD!
- I miss my friends back home
- I miss my friends here
- I have lost a few important things- I don't even know how
- I am starting to think if someone actually want something
- I am suspicious and I try to keep it down and positive
- I try hard not to spend eating out
- I am so embarrassed my friend had to bail me out for food
- I miss using shorts and tank tops
- It has been really cold :S
- I think I might just get over someone, but I haven't really think about it yet.
- I need to get more groceries
- I am playing it too slow!
- I am trying my new technique- never call/text/start chat first, if not important
- I am trying to think about how my Art sessions are going to be cool
- I dread taking 12 units
- I have to go to DMV to get ID!
- I want a TV and a fast internet.
- I want a vacuum cleaner
- I want expansions for The Sims 3
- I will have to kinda think of tolerating me getting slushied using some bad-smelling stuff.
- I don't know how I'm going to spend my birthday and treat 30 people.
- My birthday is on Sunday. That means everyone's free and it's somehow cool and troublesome
- I don't want to spend for 30 people- I'd use that money for myself. It's my birthday, right?
- I'm going to have to set aside some money to send my sisters some birthday gifts.
- I start to realize that hot guys does not really exist as much as in the movies.
- I am confused with my sims 3 since I excess-made families and storyline.
- I couldn't stop thinking about my new 'techniques'- if it is going to just go along well or not.
- I think too much.
- I daydream too much and mostly, if I do it too much, things would kinda just turn the way around.
- I have to buy that chili that I really liked!
- I don't know how I'm going to act- because I will keep it hanging on. Sorry!
- I still wonder how I lost my stuffs.
- My Macbook IS heavy.
- I'm not excited about getting up early and go to class at 8.30 Will note to self- never get the class as early as that.
-  I want to meet everyday! I don't want to just depend on the invitations and pick-ups, or even meeting ups. There should be a regular hanging out place where you just come and sit and you know they are coming. Cool, right?

so there you go.

Five Days before College Starts

Recent updates:

• I made new friends- from Spring 2011 and Fall 2010 and Spring 2010
• I have had a crush on someone
• I am kind of starting to give up on that someone
• I am still hoping that he never ever ever finds out
• I have shifted my level of toleration: as I said, it's not about the level, it's shifting it that's a problem.
• I am starting to wonder if shifting it is a good idea in a first place, because I'm so against it and so determined.
• I'm starting to wonder if I'm a person who can defend her own principles
• I am doubting myself a lot lately- whether or not whatever I'm doing is right
• I haven't gone to DMV yet, but is going to before school
• I want to drive. I just didn't want to spend that money to buy a car.
• I've been very lazy too cook lately- there's not really anything in the fridge
• I've gained 2 kg and am on my way to lose it
• I am SO FREAKIN lazy to do any financial records and planning!
• I really hope that I could buy a good, cheap, digital piano
• I'm excited that I can play piano in college
• I've started to think if I took Sims 3 too seriously
• I have to start thinking about buying the textbooks.
• I have to buy a new sketchbook
• I have to stop daydreaming!!!
• I have to learn how to clean the room since vacuum cleaner is not available.
• I want to learn Chopin Etude, Cee Lo Green's Forget You, Taylor Swift's Enchanted on piano.
• I used to like cleaning the dishes- now I have to walk to the kitchen and it's cold on the way and my chair is comfortable and in a result it makes me lazy.
• I have to start working out to lose some weight and fat
• I just found out how I looked from behind and I do not like it.
• There are really a lot of guys in the sea, but small amount to fit into the list. 
• I have to start cooking again. No problem, I like it though.
• I LOST MY COOL BRACELET THAT MY AUNT GAVE ME AND I AM MAD AT MYSELF! I LOVE IT SO MUUUUUUCH!!! NOOOOOOO!!! It's because it's kinda too big and loose...........
• I have abused my blackberry. It has scratches now... accidentally did that. I got home and I ordered a casing and a protective screen right away.

So there you go.

Four days in a row

So far...
a friend of mine, whom never gone out until more than 8PM, went out with us till 11PM etc. She said, "I feel like a bad-ass!" and it got stucked. BADASS! :D Maybe, in some countries and cultures it's like, fine and everything. But is it SAFE AND EVERYTHING?

:( NO it isn't here in Pasadena. Especially, I warn you, the TRAIN OR BUS STATION! Or the train and the bus itself.
Hobos, everywhere. EVERYWHERE I WARNCHA!
For you stupid people (jk) who don't know what hobos are: it's what we call HOMELESS! :| but not that kind of homeless, the you don't have a house and everything went bankcrupt thing. Naw, it's the freaky homeless, you know, the one with old beanies and torn-off clothes, unattended beard and hair and sometimes ....fur? body hair?... and smells like ...shit. Sleeps on the streets. That kind.

Oh, that kind, sometimes it's just being a hobo at the streets and everything. Some other time, it's just, they are cleaner than others, but they're like, weird. They talk to you for no reason, and asked for money. What, you are taking us for granted? We're not gonna spend a penny for you guys who are crazy and lazy (ah it rhymes) I don't know what the heck is going on in their minds (or mental for those crazy ones) but my stuff is kept and zipped. You ain't gonna get any of these shit I have.

Woosh. So for FOUR DAYS STRAIGHT NOW YEAH BABY YEAH! We've been going out. Like, going out going out hanging out. Just, hanging out. Eating, talking, breathing the same air (ya duh what are you guys breathing other than O2..), eating the same, ...nah, I was gonna say ....nothing. I was gonna say nothin'!

Eating the same stuff- FOOD. Yes, we've tried a lot. Like, Cheesecake Factory: a must-try, but remember to choose your time and food carefully, or ....or.... or well, you'll get stomach ache and ...you won't go there anymore. Today, we got ...Simpang Asia, which is Indonesian food OH I MISS IT GOD! :D and dinner we got italian. Which is ..nice and... BIG. Like, the portion is HUGE. like, HUGE. Should I say HUGE again? Asian portion is like, one bowl of rice, soup and veges and meat. that's like, maybe 2 bowls. All together. American portion? twice us. Well, their portion? twice-or thrice the american portion. One BIG bowl will get you... 10 people. YESH! I'm talking about that much uh-uh.

I don't think Imma suppose to post this or anything, but this is funny shit. So today is not William's bday! It's just, we're messing around with the restaurant :D I'm sorry you just lost a cake, dudes! (peace we don't want any trouble we're just teens with ....life, but with pranks, too.) The waiter came in and we're like, "Oh someone's having a birthday today!" and he went, "who?" and we all pointed to William... and he was so shocked and everything. Hilarious! We didn't expect to get even further until the other table got a birthday cake and a weird song...and candles and everything else just like normal birthday parties by restaurants.

William went to accompany Jesse to Apple store.. Anthony went with him and we heard that stuff when they were gone, and when they were back and the food was here, we were enjoying it, suddenly, the waiter came with the cake. Of course, I've got the video camera ready. Oh yeah. We're bad-ass! The moment that cake came, I pressed that little round recording thing, and PSH! It's hilarious. We were all laughing and sorts and the waiter didn't even realize it... so we got a slice of chocolate cake with ice cream and whipped cream on top... Whoa... (y) Yeah. Oh, and it tasted good. HAHAHAHA! We pranked Will and the restaurant that way. Of course, I don't know really, why, but everything was pinned on Michael... BAHAHAHA! They said that it was his idea. I just played along. It was funny. Will was gonna get some revenge...........sweet! Can't wait for how he's gonna do it.

So this is the fourth day, and by far... the most hilarious. Can't wait to see about tomorrow!

So there you go.

Some things

Sofar...
I've met 13 indonesian girls, 11 guys in PCC. If I'm not wrong :|
that's a LOT for you.

Just recently I hang out etc. Then, suddenly somethings happened, and then you know, then we had a girl talk etc. The two girls friends, told me... somethings that I already knew, that my parents told me for a long time ago, about girls and boys and it just hit me. It's not how my parents are old fashioned, it's how it's applying, it's the most right way to do it, to keep it safe and to not over do it. :| I didn't understand, because people I hang around are most usually cool with stuff I did and everything else. But this time, ti's a different community. It's a different thing, different ethics and people. .. I have to adjust, because that's how it's supposed to be, I just realized. It hit me really hard and I didn't regret that it hit me that hard, because.. it's how it's supposed to be, I just never knew that some people are still staying that way. I mean, Why? Why do people still have that believe? I still take care, I still keep that line, I still draw that line. Is it because I'm too free or their too conservative, or both combined? Or I am on the wrong phase and wrong place? Or maybe they grew up and I didn't?

So for that particular person, I feel really, really, awkward and I'm sorry about it. I didn't know, I was just learning. I am new to this kind of ethic, though I've been warned and told before. I have to thank the two girls :) that made me realized. It's not experience, this one. It's..... just logic and dignity.

So there you go.

LAS VEGAS~

Is going to Las Vegas, BABY!
HOLLA!

Downloaded a huge amount of songs... sorry, singers... I had too. I just love your song, but I love my money more...... :P hee hee
Some old songs and lots of new songs... currently addicted to the song: Only Girl (in the world) by Rihanna! :O the melody is so cool.
Other random stuff:
is practicing my chinese accent... Hay-low... Wut ay yu doow-in??

Las Vegas is going to be colder than Pasadena. HELP.
I bought a cool boots.. (which is supposed to be girls, not women but it fits anyway) It's nice... to finally have a walking boots. Is going to rock it at the first night on Las Vegas! <3
SNACK PACK<3 ADDICTED! ADDICTED! the gelationous pudding thing. GRAW I bought a dozen.

So there you go.

I MISS MY FRIENDS! :,)

Pasadena, CA, US- SO FAR

So far....
I've begin my orientation...
I've attended the group counselling...
I've registed classes...
I've settled down...
I've learnt how to cook the sauce for my noodles...
I've learnt how to do laundry...
I've learnt how to make a bedside table... (IKEA!)
I've been tidying up my bedroom...
I've used the hello kitty alarm clock...
I've pooped... (O.o)
I've said hi and smiled to a lot of people...
I've met quite a number of Indonesians...
I've met a few people from other countries including Egypt...
I've been to almost every junk food burger around...
I've walked from Old Town Pasadena to my PCC... (EFFING TIRED)
I've been scared of the chances of someone jumping out from the alley and assault me...
I've passed the lips cracking badly moments...
I've yet to pass the change of weather adaption...
I've yet to pass the change of weather effect on skin and zits... (NO... ZITS ATTACKED! *sob*)